I can't wait till novemeber ends

Hello!! this is a late blog but this is the week I cried while the teachers had a pie competition. ( i think )  There was so much going on this week, like recognition night and curriculum night. Classes were crazy and the whole week I was desperately trying to play catch up while preparing for stuff like turkey trot!! GT was also pretty interesting, our drafts were due and tbh we’re pretty behind, like we have a draft.. but we have yet to do interviews, which is like the main focus of our video on vandalism. There was also a lot of personal stuff going on at home too, I guess thats why I wasn’t into everything happeninh this week. Usually, weeks like this with lots to do, go by fast for me, but there was something about this week that was never endinggg. All in all, I’d just say this week is mentally draining but its ok bc i still got through it yk?

HIGHLIGHTS AND LOWLIGHTS!!!

Highlights: 

Recognition night was one of the most uplifting parts of this week. The whole day I wasn’t feeling too well and even before the ceremony started I had a headache and wasn’t too excited because I was sad about the fact I no longer had a 4.0 gpa streak 😱. ( looking back at it, so dramatic of me ngl but i was really aiming for that goal ) For the ceremony, my whole family was working so I had to self check in and I was honestly really worried about going up and not being cheered on or I just thought the worst. But it was really fun being able to cheer for people and whenever leadership or friends or even just anyone and we heard their name, we would yell really loud lols. I honestly feel bad for the people in front of us, their eardrums probably burst 😭.. Anyways, When I went up all my focus was on the little jumping yellows in the back of the cafeteria and It made me feel happy to have a leadership family that’s so supportive and uplifting, Which is why this event was a highlight overall.

LOWLIGHTS:

Personally, this week was definitely one full of lost trust and fake fronts. At home, its not the best and on Wednesday I was having a decently good day until I received the worst message that just ticked me off and sent me. I’m not gonna reveal all the details of what took place but lets just say i did end up breaking down outside the cafe after school with the background noise of teachers laughing their hearts out ehehhe, Now that I look back at it, it wasn’t as bad as I made it seem at the time. my friend told me that I looked like i was in complete pain while crying and to be honest that is how I felt until I went home, calmed down, and recollected. Other than this, I didn’t have any other lowlights and just the two remaining school days of the week, i was drained of my energy lols.

LESSON LEARNED:

Don’t let emotions get the best of you, I have bad memory and I can’t remember if I’ve wrote this before but I guess I learned this lesson twice or not at all because I’m here writing again about how I know it’s not the best but anways.. This week I really had lots to catch up on and the emotions and stuff i was going through really got the best of me. Me, being the overthinker I am, did too much and was mentally drainedd, I learned this lesson most especially after the wednesday incident and I lashed outtttt. It was crazy but in leadership or school in general, it’s important to get things done and on time, I can’t always be excusing things just because I’m not in the mood or i’m more sad than I am productive- that’s just not gonna work, and in the end i’ll just end up feeling worse than when everything started because I’m sad with unfinished work. Heres me taking curriculum nigth pics ↓

MAGIC NOTES:

My favorite magic note of this week was Zhaleas! This is because she mentioned dance and my confidence. Last year at dance I was really insecure of my dancing and I was scared that I’d embarass myself, but now I understand that it’s all about learning and improvement so I’m glad she mentioned something I’m unsure about. Also, I’m excited and very happy she joined the team!! So, if you’re Zhalea and reading this, thankyouu and you are very much a slayboss ❣️